Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Thanks for everything

My friend once told me that "maybe kau bukan pilihan pertama utk member2 kau, family kau. Cukup lah kalau kau jadi org pertama kat hati tuhan kau, Allah. Baca quran badak, in shaa allah hati kau tenang"

Im afraid that statement is frigging true. Aku stop baca quran dalam one month cmtu alasan aku malas and so on la. Then rasa mcm hati ni distance sgt dari tuhan. Ya allah. Patutlah takde ketenangan. Herm. Alhamdulillah. I regain my ketenangan slowly, walaupon sometimes tu mcm tersasar sikit. Takpe, kita slow slow.

Buat geng pishang 🍌 , thanks for always ade dgn aku through thick and thin. Ya allah im such a cry baby. Seriously guys. I think im far more complicated than kim kardasyian. Should be they make a reality show about keeping up with the hazeeeqohhh. Hahahahah

Akak its okay akak, sometimes aku breakdown sbb rindu dekat kau. Sometimes aku lupa dekat kau. Org ckp kalau time sedeh baru kita engat kat dia means that particular person do mean something to them. So, i try my best to always sedekahkan kau yassin everytime i miss u akak. So kau doakan aku rajin eh. Sbb aku syg kau, aku nak kau mudah kat sana.

Being a teenager is hard, but if you stop trying, it will be even harder. Keep paddling guyssss 🚣🚣
adios amigos bace cotcet cotcet aku :P dunt forget utk menjadi kipas susah mati aku pulak ek :)

Friday, April 10, 2015

Im not trying to gain sympathy here

Its been a while. So assalamualaikum to who ever yg baca post ni.

Aku hilang akak aku tahun lepas 19/2/2014. And aku rasa sampai sekarang aku still harap bende tu mimpi. But then it will be mcm mimpi yg tak pasti and when you wake up, ull hope u still be sleeping. Cenggitu.

You are a liar kan akak. Herm
Kau janji nak dtg graduation day aku
Kau janji nak jadi pengapit time aku kawen
Kau janji nak jaga anak aku sbb yeah, im bad with kids
Kau janji kau nak teman aku dengar masalah aku
And i ask you now akak,
Where the hell are you?!

Sampai hati kau kak,
Kau tinggal aku sorg2.
I got no one akak.
No one yg boleh replace kau.
No one yg boleh dgr cerita aku sesemangat kau.
No one yg ketawa dgr lawak aku sekuat ketawa kau.
No one yg happy tgk aku makan, mcm mana kau happy kak.

Isnin ni birthday aku kak, birthday kedua yg kau takde utk celebrate dgn aku.
There will be no cakes
No simple happy birthday gesture
No sing a long song
Nothing akak.
Sbb kau dah takde.

I'll cry my heart out if i can bring you back akak, i freaking will!!
Tapi tu nampak aku mcm tak redho.
Please kak, jgn buat aku nanges lagi.
Please akak, dtg teman aku.
Walaupon dalam mimpi.


Al fatihah
adios amigos bace cotcet cotcet aku :P dunt forget utk menjadi kipas susah mati aku pulak ek :)

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