Its your birthday 🎊🎊🎉🎉🎊

Well hello there,

Harini birthday akak aku. Yayyyy meee another year without her. Huuuuuu takdelah just rindu. Sikit. Tak banyak pon.

Akak,
Aku skrg gone through a lot of things
1- laki yg mak bapak kita nak jodohkan utk aku tu tak suka dekat aku sgt. Not technically yg "i hate you, i dont wanna be with you" type cuma dia lebih kepada "nope, not really into relationship. And my future that i had been planning yeahhh you are not in it" hahahahha beze ke? Entah.
2- friends. Like shit. Biasela. The shitty always always being and act like a piece of shit. But the good one idk, they sometimes screw up and can be shitty-er that ever? And that hurt macam nak gila kot. Tp takpe. Ade ups and down kan dlm friendship. And yeah, aku pon selalu jugak act like a total lunatic. So its a fair deal.
3- mom and dad. Mak is getting cuter and entahlah makin mengikut perangai aku hahahaha gila2 tp aku syg dia. Ops, WE love her right? Hahahaha. And ayah okay makin jaga aku yg mcm taknak lepas sbb ye la, dia dah hulang kau. Xkan dia nak hulang aku hahahah. Tp kalau gila dia dtg. Herm azobbbb. They are the bestest right? 😚❤️
4. Me. Aku mcmni. Socially awkward. Like my face senyum sengih tp dalam hati *f f go die i dont wanna talk to you. Trash. Baik aku mati je.* yuppp and so aku rasa aku fine and masih tabah hahahahah.

Where are you akak?

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Thanks for everything

My friend once told me that "maybe kau bukan pilihan pertama utk member2 kau, family kau. Cukup lah kalau kau jadi org pertama kat hati tuhan kau, Allah. Baca quran badak, in shaa allah hati kau tenang"

Im afraid that statement is frigging true. Aku stop baca quran dalam one month cmtu alasan aku malas and so on la. Then rasa mcm hati ni distance sgt dari tuhan. Ya allah. Patutlah takde ketenangan. Herm. Alhamdulillah. I regain my ketenangan slowly, walaupon sometimes tu mcm tersasar sikit. Takpe, kita slow slow.

Buat geng pishang 🍌 , thanks for always ade dgn aku through thick and thin. Ya allah im such a cry baby. Seriously guys. I think im far more complicated than kim kardasyian. Should be they make a reality show about keeping up with the hazeeeqohhh. Hahahahah

Akak its okay akak, sometimes aku breakdown sbb rindu dekat kau. Sometimes aku lupa dekat kau. Org ckp kalau time sedeh baru kita engat kat dia means that particular person do mean something to them. So, i try my best to always sedekahkan kau yassin everytime i miss u akak. So kau doakan aku rajin eh. Sbb aku syg kau, aku nak kau mudah kat sana.

Being a teenager is hard, but if you stop trying, it will be even harder. Keep paddling guyssss 🚣🚣

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Im not trying to gain sympathy here

Its been a while. So assalamualaikum to who ever yg baca post ni.

Aku hilang akak aku tahun lepas 19/2/2014. And aku rasa sampai sekarang aku still harap bende tu mimpi. But then it will be mcm mimpi yg tak pasti and when you wake up, ull hope u still be sleeping. Cenggitu.

You are a liar kan akak. Herm
Kau janji nak dtg graduation day aku
Kau janji nak jadi pengapit time aku kawen
Kau janji nak jaga anak aku sbb yeah, im bad with kids
Kau janji kau nak teman aku dengar masalah aku
And i ask you now akak,
Where the hell are you?!

Sampai hati kau kak,
Kau tinggal aku sorg2.
I got no one akak.
No one yg boleh replace kau.
No one yg boleh dgr cerita aku sesemangat kau.
No one yg ketawa dgr lawak aku sekuat ketawa kau.
No one yg happy tgk aku makan, mcm mana kau happy kak.

Isnin ni birthday aku kak, birthday kedua yg kau takde utk celebrate dgn aku.
There will be no cakes
No simple happy birthday gesture
No sing a long song
Nothing akak.
Sbb kau dah takde.

I'll cry my heart out if i can bring you back akak, i freaking will!!
Tapi tu nampak aku mcm tak redho.
Please kak, jgn buat aku nanges lagi.
Please akak, dtg teman aku.
Walaupon dalam mimpi.


Al fatihah

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Kuantan

Assalamualaikum. 

Lamaaaa nyeee ittewww takkk hupdateewe blogggg. Hahaha

*okay and dipersilakan utk muntah kerana penggunaan bahasa sy*

 

Okay misi sem ni. Survive!! Hahah. Doakan aku weyh. Skrg kan musim final. And me. Still standing la buat masa ni. 

Pray for da best. Buibuii

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Firman

Salam

Harini melawat si hensem newborn baby firman. 

Hes so small.

Tak banyak ragam.

But seriously lah.

So smalllllllllll!!!!!!

Tak pe sayang.

Tak kisah la figure awak berapa.

Ukur lilit pinggang awak berapa.

You are perfect sayang.

You are.

Furqan.

Abang kepada firman.

U got serius competitor here.

So please behave.

Hahahaha

*oke furqan. Ucu takkan lupekan furqan oke*

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Kawan

Kawan.
Aku nak kau tau.
Kalau boleh aku nak kite macam dulu.
Kalau kau x boleyh aku xnk pakse.
Aku doakan kau dapat kawan yg lebih faham diri kau lebih dari aku paham kau.
Boleyh buat kau gelak mcm kene rasuk setan lebih dasyat dari aku pernah buat kau dulu.

Sebab kawan.
Kau satu dalam seribu.
Kau buat aku stress.
Kau buat aku sedih gila babs.
Kau buat aku rase mcm nak terjun bangunan tingkat 18.
Kau buat aku dah xrase ape ape.
But still.
Kau buat aku rase gembira.
Kau buat aku ketawa.
No words kawan. No words can describe it.

Thanks kawan.
I owe u ones.
Nanti umur panjang.
Aku balas jasa kau.
Mungkin bukan dengan wang ringgit.
Tapi dgn doa yang xpernah putus putus.

Satu hari nanti kawan.
Kau akan say hello kat aku dulu.
Satu hari nantii....

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Break even

Alkisah
Aku penat
Aku penat dengan keluarga
Aku penat dengan kawan kawan
Aku penat dengan diri aku
Dengan hidup aku sendiri
Aku rase da whole world is against me

Entah
Seriusly
Who da hell yg tahu which path dorg kene follow utk make sure hidop dorg happy ever after????!!!
which path!!! Tell me!!!!

Dah la
Aku rase aku kurang pegangam denganNya
Sebab tu tak de sape nak berpegang ngan aku

Kalau aku mati
Aku tak rase org akan sedar
Aku tak rase org akan menangis
Cume satu
Sedekahkan doa
Sedekahkan alfatihah
Walau pon kau semua dah benci kat aku.

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gitar

peace yaww.

bosan

so kalau bosan. aku cube lah nak cari hobi.

seperti mengumpul setem, membaca, mendengar radio dan sebagainya..

*chooiii. ayat darjah darjah*

dah bosan. typical remaja or perasan remaja (means dorg mungkin dalam early 25's la)

ape lagi kalau tak

instagram

twitter

keek

facebook (which kalau dh tua mcm dah x layan sgt)

blog.. (yg mne rajin je la)

tapi akuuu..

aku isi masa lapang aku dengan..

berseniii..

*ceyth*

main gitar la.

walaupon aku tak hebat langsung.

ni gitar ni dari zaman bapak aku belum jumpe mak aku lagi.

kirenye, bapak aku bukan romeo ah.

ngorat mak aku, 

dok tepi jalan.

nyanyi lagu jiwang..

so not my dad.

hahaha

gamba ni cantik. aku nak tunjuk.

aahahaha.

effect camera 360..

im working on some new music right now..

tp awat mostly sume lagu heartbroken??!!

aiyooooo. entah la.

mungkin sbb music can speak in its own way kuttss.

hahaha.

okay ah bro and gegels2 sekalian.

dah lewat.

gua ngantok.

isyak pon belum lagi ni.

hahha

assalamualaikum.

jaga hati. jaga iman.

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tamak.

salam alaik.

aku tamak.

aku nak kau.

aku nak mereka.

aku nak dua dua.

sebab dua dua buat aku bahagia.

dua dua buat aku sengsara.

aku bukan puitis.

nak cakap sayang rindu bagai in serius way.

aku egois.

aku mungkin nampak happy gila babas.

tapi dalam hati aku ni.

DIA je yang tahu.

DIA je yang mengerti.

cume satu.

aku budak. baru belajar.

kalau salah. tolong tunjukkan jalan.

bukan dengan makian.

aku tahu aku hina.

tak macam kau. kau sempurna di mata mereka.

sempurna di mata dunia.

dan mungkin sempurna di mata YANG ESA.

maafkan aku manusia.

aku penuh sifat busuk. buruk.

maafkan aku

jangan risau.

bunuh diri itu bukan aku

sebab aku islam

aku punyai maruah

aku punyai harga diri

salam alaik

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IM 20 YAWWW!!!

PEACE yaww!!

13 april 2013

gua sambut birthday gua.

saje je gua hide kat fb, tengok saper je yang engat kat gua,

hampehhh. sebesar kuman je yg engat. kecewe itteww leulss..

so, first wish from family.

second cok

third shera, hawe, arra, maller, zop (sixten la literally)

then bambam.

the rest is history.

thanks semua.

gua useless tanpa korg.

gua nobody tanpa korg.

gua foreber alone tanpa korg.

peace yawww. may be bless.

gamba repost. gamba terbaru ni. gua gemuk sgt. tak muat.

sekian. gua sedar diri.

ke babommmmm !!!

p/s : jantung hati pengarang jantung gua pon ade wish. siapa dy? biarlah rahsia.

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COMEL TAK KAK TONNNNN

Assalamualaikum boboy and gegels sekalian..

COMELLL TAKK KAKKKK TONNNN!!!

hahah. actually kan, aku ade bace gak yg kak ton tau yg ramai org menyampah dengan slogan dy tu. tp dy nak org kenal dy. so sbb tu la dy buat moto mcm tu. hahaha,

at least, on the bright side, ade la jugak kan org kenal dy.

yg dok komplen tu, bro... org x kenal pon kau. senyapp sudahh.. hewhewhew

okay. ni nak cerita pasal budak bawah umo which literally..

dy baru boleyh tgk movie yg rate 18 la. kehkehkeh.

*choiii. otak kotor ah korg sume. hahaha *

nama dy qila.

dia.....

bangang

bangang

bangang kali sejutaaaaa......

bangang in good way la. serius weyh. kalau korg nak perut korg kurus.

g la melepak dok sebelah dy.

dy buat lawak, sampai boleyh keluar 6 packs la.

xyah susah susah nak pakai felinna, herbalife or splipid menatang kejadah apa tah.

budak tu otak masuk air clorox rasenye.

seriusssss. hahaha

yang comel tu aku laaa. yg buruk tu dy, hahahahahha

bro. thanks bro. gelak ngan aku. dengar pasal cerita budak2 aku,

dengar pasal wooyoung aku, gelak pasal lawak kotor aku, haha.

kau ohsem.

stay ohsem

lap chuu :*

p/s : post ini sebenanye xdek kaitan ngan kak ton pon. so kbye kak ton. tumpang populariti kejap...

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its me leulsz

salam everyone. just a short entry i guess. me.

currently : being fat.

                 : works at tutti frutti bangi. *fell free to come*

                 : selekeh much.

                 : being fake.

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me is sad TT^TT

May peace be upon you.

tak tahu kenape malam ni rase down.

think bout something maybe. ermmm

result?? nahhh, such a waste.

dont know. and dont wanna know. 

:)

Hey, Dad, look at me
Think back, and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I want to do?
But it hurts when you disapproved all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for
You can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me

[Chorus]
'Cause we lost it all
Nothin' lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care any more
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you 
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's all right

'Cause we lost it all
And nothin' lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
And nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

tak tahu la if lyric ni synchronous dgn video tu or tak.

dont know. and dont wanna know..

assalamualaikum.

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SUKIPT :3

assalamualaikum and and and happy 

S.U.N.D.A.Y.Y.Y!!

so harini gua nak cerita pasal kawan gua yg join s.u.k.i.p.t

sukipt?

ape itu sukipt?

xpernah dengar pon pasal sukipt??

hahaha. actually gua pon baru je dengar last month kot.

dy mcm sukan IPT lah.

nak tau lebih lanjut, ni hah gua bagi link....

...........................

*google lah sendiri. tak kan tu pon gua nak tunjuk*

hahahaha. 

so basically. dy baru je masuk SEMI final.

tapi kan, kire semi tu. gempakss lah kan.

gua bukan nak cakap ape lah. 

dy main ngan budak state, budak kebangsaan. . .

perghhhh. style gila kannn

sooo. as a friend. gua kagum dengan dy.

shes okay lah. nak cakap dy tu rendah dirii, ermmm.. dy memang rendah! hahaha

so, no komen lah kan.

heree, gua nak doa kan yg dy and dy punye team dapat masukkkk

FINAL. if Allah wills kay.

that mangse kejadian is her. hahaha.

yg lain tu team mate la. 

soooooo.

least i can say is. fightinggg!!!!

kalau ade rezeki, korang akan menang punye laaa. insyaAllah.

(^~^) badakbijaks

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start being AWESOME peeps

assalam.

hey hoo digidiii peeps. 

long time no blogging kan.

gaya pakai tudung baru.

gaya poodle nmenyer. hahaha :D

*please ignore my big and montel hand*

actually, dah lame sgt dah gua tak hapdate blog ni. 

*fuhhhh sawang saner sini. maklumlah dah namernyer laman sesawang. tak ke gitu. #lamejoke*

tergerak lah hati nak update pasal satu cerita ni.

around 3weeks yang lepas kan. gua mcm mental breakdown lah sikit.

exam.kawan.family.enemy.crush.lectures.notes.

semua tu bila tambah tolak bahagi campur rase mcm kene lenyek ngan lori treler tayar 18 pon ade jugak.

nak buat cmne. selamat lah gua tak diuji dengan ujian yg lebih berat dari tu. kan kan kan.

tapi sbb gua ni manusia. bile gua streess gua akaaaannn ...

akaannnnn . . . .

tak lain tak bukan. gua akan nanges and and and mengeluh...

*so not good attitudes kan*

and then, my friend. mcm bg nasihat lah kat gua.

"bile rase mcm semua org tak boleh dengar masalah kau. ape kater kau cerita kat org yg memang kompem pasti akan dengar masalah kau. who is it? Allah ya rabb. pencipta kita."

and that time, i was like.

"no la. my iman not as strong as urs. and blaaa blaaa blaaaa. *complaint complaint and keep on complaining*

hahaha. seriously. kawan gua mcm sgt memahami and dy bg direct answer yg gua rase,

ohh tak salah kot kalau aku cube...

and she said..

"lepas maghrib tu ape kater kau duduk kat tikar sejadah tu. cerita je. lepas je ape yg kau nak lepas. nangis je puas2. time tu, sebenanyer DIA tengah mendengar. dah habis cerita tu, kau biar je DIA yg decide. ape yg terbaik and ape yg tak. the rest is takdir."

method ni memang nampak macam alah simple je. tapi cube lah. lepas solat tu. duduk jap kat tikar sejadah tu. and cakap slow slow. cakap dalam hati pong boleyhh. tak yah lah dok melaung kuat2 macam laungan 1 MALAYSIA tu. itu kompem orang kater weng weng.. hehe.

macam ape yg kawan aku cakap

the rest is takdir

sentiase syukur dengan ape yg Allah dah bagi.

sentiasa tunggu hikmah behind every incidents.

sentiase sabar of cozzz. 

last but not least. a cute gorges awesome pic of me and my "friend".

hehehe :3

(^~^) badakbijaks

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# 1st story :3

dimulakan dengan BISMILLAH . . . . 

*bace style nasyid. hehe*

kali ni gua nak share yg sedeyh dulu,

well, coz, last is for the best right?

hewhewhew

so, gua ade geng move on la kat uia ni, name dy, aniss,

dengan dy, gua selalu share music pasal heartbroken la,

frankly, gua rasa diri gua creepy gila. hahaha

da heck la kan nak move on move on bagai,

sbb tiap2 malam dok stalker tweet si dia la,

stalk fb dy la,

pic yg dy post, gua dok save....

tang maner yg move on tu pon gua tak tau,

hahahaha

so, ni gua nak share la, lagu yg agak fun for heartbroken-ers out there,

hewhewhew

1st. Fix you by coldplay.

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

sbb gua suke lagu ni? sbbnyee..

crush gua suke lagu ni, hahaha

short n simple. hahaha

tak move on langsung kan,

no la. tapi kan kalau, hadam betul2 lagu ni,

ermmm, kinda, inspirational and motivational gaks la.

hahahahah.

partially because...

.... to be continued

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hey hoo digidiiii ~

Peace be upon you!!!!

Ya Allah, lamenyer gua tak hupdate menatang ni, 

banyak gua nak story. banyak gua nak share.

cerita gua, ade la, heppi ada, sedeyh ade, perasan sendiri ade, hahaha. 

pakej you alls. hewhewhew :D

So, kali ni, kite buat marathon blog la.

engat marathon movie je boleyh?? hahah

ermmm, tau tak marathon movie tu hape?

marathon movie tu, istilah tgk movie tanpa henti oleh budak2 u,

yang tak sedar exam makin dekat,

still layan cite jiwang, nanges bagai. hahaha

kang x pasal, nanges bile dapat paper,

sbb result cam hampeh. -..-

*okay gua perli diri sendiri*

so peeps, well, tighten ur seatbell. and please, enjoy the ride :D

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stranger will be?

well, assalamualaikum there :3

this is my story.

then

then

so here i am.

 here we are.

 ended like what it suppose to be.

and how it suppose to be,

(^~^) badakbijaks

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me behind me :')

peace be upon you peeps :3

lets greet sya'ban with our smile and full of happines :3

behind every picture lies different stories, different characters, different intention.

it has hope in it, love in it, friends in it.

because there are something that hard to tell, but easily to write.

there are something that sound useless but it kinda priceless.

there are something that here and there.....

behind me.

its not a so-super-duper-amazing stories

it basically about ME. my FRIENDS. my CRUSH. my LOVE.

but i know, for some reasons, this not so-super-duper-amazing stories will lies in one heart.

that actually mean the WORLD for me :3

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sometimes, i felt like im not normal. cause i love my girlfriends more than my crush and my bff.

its making me kinda freak somehow, well i think.

but then, it sound legit enough. hehehe :3

(^~^) badakbijaks

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yang penting ? hati :)

peace be upon you :3

friend or friends.

serious gua cakap ade beze doh friend and friend with S. maksudnye banyak kawan and ade sorg je kawan. kat sini gua nak ckp la. sometime org pandang kualiti tu penting, and ade sesetengah org pandang kuantiti tu yang penting. tapi ape guna ade ramai kawan tp sume haprak. bile susah bukannye nak tolong. lari and sibuk kutuk belakang ade la. mcm badak sumbu punye perangai pon ade jugak kan.

tapi tak semestiye ade sorg kawan tu dh mencukupi. probability utk di stab back mungkin kurang, tapi who knows yang bile yang SORG tu yang stab back, mak aih rase dy mcm ade jantung berlubang kot. sakit mak baq hang. okeyhhh. bagi gua la, pendapat personal gua. gua rase semua tu rezeki.

kalau dah Allah dah kun fayakun kan, kau ade kawan sikit. kau kene la redho. kalau Allah dah tertulis kawan kau ramai, kau kene la redho. every bende kat dunia ni ade pros n cons. kalau gua, gua bersyukur gua ade ramai kawan, kepala sama bulat perut je lain saiz. hehehe :3 

kawan2 gua cakap gua ni :

-overdose manje.

-muke kurang kasih syg.

-suke nangis.

-suke mintak perhatian.

n banyak lagi.

tapi bagi gua, gua mcm tu dengan dorg je. sbb gua tau, dengan dorg je la gua boleyh jadi diri gua yang cmtu. kalau gua buat ngan semua org perangai gua yg annnoying tu, confirm gua kene hantar g hospital sakit jiwa. hehehe :3 

ade kawan gua cakap. i mean, seriously kawan baik gua, 

gua nak dia heppy

gua nak stay sampai gombak ngan dy

gua nak jd rommate dy sampai bile2

gua nak lepak kat rumah dy

gua nak dy act cold kat gua sorg je

gua nak masuk syurga ngan dy, boleyh ngorat bidadara same2

hikhikhik :33

" rase loser gila bila kawan baik kau nangis, n kau x tau pape pon pasal masalah dy. walhal kau kawan baik dy.kau just boleyh dok sebelah and do nothing. "

-gua ade tambah meggi cukup rase bg rase dy sedap sikit- 

time tu gua sedar, gua ade kwn2 gua. gua ade org yg nak tengok gua happy instead of nangis sepanjang hari, mate bengkak, pretend to be happy and so so. gua ade dia. gua ade mereka. thanz dude,

you ollss (especially you) are the best chapter in my storybook :')

(^~^)badakbijaks

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adios amigos bace cotcet cotcet aku :P dunt forget utk menjadi kipas susah mati aku pulak ek :)

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